I hate it when this happens. I was struggling with the mantra work from the night I had the 3am night. Simply put, I don’t recover from that like I used to.
Two things happened, I went to Chicago, and there was no place I could do the meditation at my Father’s house. I mean trying to do it at 3am each night while in Chicago, and really struggling with it. Location matters, and generally I do keep the magical operations I work with a secret from my dad. That turned out to be a real problem, and I couldn’t recover from the 3 am night. Now, since I failed on Sunday Night, I took a couple days of the discipline. I will restart the discipline on this Sunday with a bit more planning. I did get a few things out of it.
- The Time syncs are a real problem and the lack of time very detrimental.
- I have to find break down the time issue and start cutting stuff out to make time for things.